I trust God. I understand he has a plan and knows me and my life more than I do. But, I'm going to put it out there. I am so frustrated by it. Sometimes I wish I could just do it myself. Like God is Lowe's or something "You can do it, we can help." Guess what, God? It's hard to trust you. It's hard to be lonely. It's hard to sit back and let you do your thing, especially when you're someone like me who has a nice little plan laid out. I know exactly what I want, and God knows exactly why it would be bad for those things to happen. That's just hard to accept. I have a brilliant, organized creator over me, who knows what I want and what I need and has a perfect blend of the two, and because I'm a 16 yr old boy i think "Who cares what I need, I want this!" I keep getting open paths that lead to dead ends, and once I hit a wall another path opens, leading to a dead end once again. and again. and again. It's hard to trust that God is looking out for you when bad things keep happening. But, that's why I'm the creation and your the creator, God. Do your will, and may I be minimized and you be magnifyed, no matter how angry I am.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5
Verse of the week!
-Evan
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