Sometimes

Sometimes music has no dancers. Sometimes questions have no answers. Sometimes it’s the future that brings us our fear. Sometimes we hear things we don’t want to hear. As love takes, patience, faith and trust, we must hope for the happiness of those around us. Nothing comes easily, nothing comes free. No one can explain my life to me. Sometimes I wonder what God is thinking.

So...Now what?

Right now I am taking a what's to come check. Do I know what's to come? No. Check. I am for once in my life going with the flow. Whatever flow that may be, I'm right in the current, and I'm enjoying going where it takes me. Do what you will with me, God, cause I'm done with always having a plan.

In God's time

I am a leaf on the mightiest tree, I leave with the breeze and come back to thee. He follows me. I'm a wave in the ocean, I'm the fruit on the vine, wherever I'm going, I know he is mine. He never leaves me. I falter and drift, I break down and fall, I try to do nothing, and instead do it all. He still loves me.  I am a wanderer, selfish and lost, I beg for what I want without seeking a cost. I can't see the future, I can't stop my sin, I can no longer fight but somehow I still win. He is my shield. I take without asking, I run without passing, I try to succeed where I'm hopelessly lacking. I am rebel for I make my own plan; God knows what's coming, why can't I understand? For it was he who designed me and made me from dust, where is my faithfulness, where is my trust? I worry and whine through ever hard line, why don't I see that I'm right In God's Time.

Lean

Lord I am broken. I am shattered and tired. I have finally spoken, the canon has fired. I want to be focused, I want to be fed, but I only feel confusion, I only feel dead. The world is so dark, I want to see light, i feel so weak, but I still want to fight. So untill you reveal whatever you've seen, on you I will solely and completely lean.

Renew my spirit. Renew my heart.
I want to love you more than anything.

Shmallows

I love fall. Cool wind, falling leaves, campfire and long sleeves. It's the most wonderful time of year. I mostly wish the weather in Fall lasted longer. It's blazing hot in summer, perfect for like 2 weeks, then it's freezing. I love campfires too. Mostly cause I love roasting marshamallows. I want to invent a super smores maker. maybe I already did??

I look forward to fall every year. I'm always so happy this time of year. Peace out Fall Lovers. And all you spring fevers with your no asthma, allergy free lungs. Jealous.

Old School

Sometimes I just like to re-visit my past a bit. Pull out the Super Nintendo and beat Aladdin in like 5 minutes. Flip on Nick Jr. and say " A CLUE! A CLUE!" watching blues clues. Put on Ice Princess and quote every word. (ARE YOU HAPPY ABOUT MY FEET??) And whoever decided that once you're 13 you shouldn't think firetrucks and racecars are cool. I'm all about them hot wheels.

Past Today

I am looking forward. I am looking forward to my life to come. I am blessed with a life I can look forward to. I am looking forward to music. I am looking forward to opportunities. I am looking forward to school. I am looking forward to growing up. I am so blessed. I have a family who loves me, friends who always try, a roof over my head, and a shirt on my back. I am looking forward to putting a roof over someone else's head, and to put a shirt on their backs. I want to do great things for this world and for my God. I want to bring people love they've never imagined. Love of a creator. I am looking forward to moving forward and moving ahead. I hope for good, and I hope for bad. I hope I get where I'm going.

-Evan